Two as Three

Today Tove “turned” two months old; two months of our family being three instead of just the two of us. The meaning of time changed completely the moment she was born; Ben and I say that time is just a construct now. Doesn’t matter how many hours we’ve slept in a day because her life goes on and she still needs us. Doesn’t matter if it’s 3am and she wants to feed, mamma has to eat as well. So we’re just rolling with the punches and I think we’re managing pretty well all things considered!

We’ve graduated to size 1 diapers from newborn and she’s almost fitting perfectly into 3 month old onesies 😱. Still not getting longer stretches of sleep but we’re also not on a consistent routine since my work schedule is all over the place. The swaddles though- brilliance.

Tove is definitely more alert now. She will follow you with her eyes and she’s almost to the point where she can hold her neck up on her own. An improvement from when she used to headbutt my collarbone. That first week I thought she was going to give herself a concussion 🤕

We have dance parties and Tove seems to be pretty fond of Kasey Musgraves new album 💿 but at night she’s all about the white noise Spotify playlist for babies.

She also eats SO QUICKLY, it’s like she’s chugging on my breast 😅. Pumping at work has been a challenge, and I leaked visibly yesterday. But we’re happy she’s eating well and growing! Some latch issues still so we’ve got an appointment for a lip and tongue tie evaluation towards the end of this month.

Every day is a new struggle but filled with so many AMAZING moments. I can’t describe the feeling I get from seeing her happiness just from the sound of my voice. Pure love 💕 ❤️

Current playlist; High Five

You know, music really just lifts the spirit whichever way it needs to go. Sometimes you need to cry and let it out. Other times you need to scream and release the anger. Then there are times when you’re just so happy that you NEED to sing; along to something of course, this isn’t The Voice let’s be real.

In case you’re in need of new jams or just some background tunes for your commute, I’m currently playing these songs on repeat:
 

NR. 1:


Artist: Sasha Sloan
Song: Runaway

“I know I did all the shitty things to you
I said I never ever would
Baby, that’s so like me”

NR. 2


Artist: Tove Lo
Song: Cycles

“I’m in a cycle
Yeah, I admit it
How can I change it when I don’t know when I’m in it?”

NR. 3


Artist: Lil Peep
Song: Beamer Boy

“I feel like I’m a no one, that’s what they told me
I’mma show ya, baby I was chosen”

NR. 4


Artist: Erika Norwich
Song: Ballerina

“When my mom complained about my health
Ballerina thought I felt alone when she had no idea what I felt”

NR. 5


Artist: Avicii
Song: Lonely Together (feat. Rita Ora)

“I might hate myself tomorrow, but I’m on my way tonight
Let’s be lonely together
A little less lonely together”

PSA there are currently only two playlists that I’ve made public, but if you’re interested in more of my musical ‘taste’ follow me on Spotify