Birth Affirmation Cards

The closer we get to our due date the more and more prepared I feel we are at home. Changing table has arrived from IKEA and we got a changing pad recently from Keekaroo as well. Plus after the baby shower so many of the items on our registry got purchased that the only thing left for me to do is mentally prepare for an unmedicated birth. I told Ben not to let me chicken out when the time comes and ask to go to a hospital just cause I want pain meds.

When we took our birthing class the instructor recommended we put together a few items to bring with us to the birthing center (which could also be brought to a stale hospital environment in case of an emergency transfer) so I decided to start working on an inspiration board today. I found some phrases on Pinterest but also drew from my own personal mantras and created some super simple affirmation cards on Canva.

If you want to see all 12 of them you can do so here. I’m no graphic designer but they are simple so you can use them as a template if you click the pen in the bottom left hand corner and change the phrases to fit your own birthing experience!

From Our Baby Shower

From Our Baby Shower

My boss asked during one of our meetings if I had planned on having a baby shower. I told her no, in Sweden it is not customary, and I’d never even attended one before. So Megan took it upon herself to encourage me to start my baby registry and host a shower for us! I’m so thankful she was willing to plan and host our baby shower with the help of some of my radest colleagues.

Not only were the cookies the CUTEST things ever, I loved the color and Tove’s name on them, but they were also delicious. I got to take home 4 of them and I ate them within 2 days… oops, I would do it again. Megan had 3 different games prepared for us as well, the first was a plastic baby you had to hold in your hand, not pocket, and whoever had the most at the end of the shower won.

The second game was to guess what baby item was in the paper bag. Not to brag but I won cause I got all the items correct- MOM TO BE POINTS! The third was different kinds of chocolate bars melted in diapers and we had to guess what type it was. I did poorly with guessing, needed my chocoholic dad to be there I guess.

After the games the ‘shower’ began and Ben and I got to open presents from all our friends who came. You can see Ben proudly looking and counting his babies at the start of opening presents.

So appreciative of all the useful gifts we received, we felt so loved during opening them. I will say Brit had the Spice Girls onesie custom made for me and Ben already knew about it but actually managed to keep it a secret for MONTHS.

My sweet colleagues had also helped blow up balloons at work and then set up the backdrop for photos! I handed the camera to Sabah and got photos with all our attendees 💕 sweet sweet memories.

Megan, the hostess with the mostest! Not only is she a mom of four kids, but she also runs two businesses. #GirlPower

Me and Michael! He was actually one of the interviewers when I applied for my current position. Now 1.5 years later, I’m his boss 😛 but only technically because I don’t believe he would let anyone be boss over him truly.

Sabah and I, another beloved colleague. Not only is she an immigrant like meeeee but she’s just a badass in the cannabis community as well. Love having her in my corner for support. Plus she’s pretty damn good at buying presents that fit me to a T!

Dream team from work… or as our group text says, Hoe$

Sierra, my assistant manager at work, and I. She’s been a favorite of mine for a while now. Not only is she such a pleasure to work with but I just adore the crap out of her as well. Like I would love to just go on a hike with our pups and drink margs after one of these days! I’m excited for her to get to run the show while I’m away on maternity leave.

Ben, Sierra, I, and Quez

Hannah and her son Avery.

Mady and I

Sweet Kyla. Another mom to help field my millions of questions!

Ben, me, Brit & Tobin. Our first OKC friend couple!

Forever my best friend! Was happy Ito was willing to drive up from Dallas to spend the night before with me and also attend the shower. Plus now my colleagues know I didn’t just make up having a best friend from Canada 😅

The only blood relative we had at the shower was my brother, Rob. Him and his girlfriend, Helena, drove up from Dallas; I felt so bad that they got caught in traffic coming up, making it a 4 hour drive for ~1 hr of the baby shower only to then drive back down. I really wanted Rob to come in person though because Ben and I met through him. My brother invited Ben to celebrate July 4th with Ito and I and here we are 5 years later about to have a baby!! We also asked my brother after the baby shower to be the god father, and he happily said yes 🥰

Happy parents to be.. the second one is when Ben realized our daughter’s due date was a month away.. lol jk JOKESSSSssss

So happy and grateful for those who decided to come celebrate with us! Had a great time and wouldn’t have wanted it any other way.

Father’s Day @ Cafe Cuvée

I got spoiled rotten this past weekend by my parents who came to visit. They cleaned our entire home AND my mom cooked a bunch of meals for our freezer meaning we can eat easily once baby girl arrives. Dad also helped Ben put the bases in both cars for the car seat. I feel like we are ready for her to come into the world any day now. Luckily we reserved Sunday for my Pappa!

We ate brunch at Cafe Cuvée in the Ambassador hotel in Midtown. Luckily they could squeeze us in because my dad had accidentally made the reservation for Monday morning.

Good service. Good atmosphere. I would definitely go back to eat here! Ito and I actually stayed at the Ambassador hotel for my birthday last year but we ordered champagne room service from Cafe Cuvée then instead 😝

Unfortunately my Mamma wasn’t feeling good, like at all, but I love this photo Ben snapped of my Pappa and I outside the Ambassador hotel. 🥰💕

Next year’s Father’s Day we will be celebrating Ben being a father & amy dad being a grandfather!

Pregnancy Photo Dump

I wanted to blog/journal throughout this pregnancy but honestly haven’t had the extra energy to put into it. So many unwritten blog posts and topics to cover, I wish I was just pregnant full-time and didn’t have to work so I would’ve been able to do more. Here’s a photo journal instead from the second and beginning of the third trimester. A lot of these are just mirror pictures but I still love seeing the progress and changes over time ☺️

I guess I finally felt like I was ‘showing’ at this point. Comical looking back on it now, she was still tiny in there.

I got approved to wear a different uniform at work. Tights being the main perk! Also had to pick up some larger t-shirts and sweaters from work.. living leaf and loving life in this picture.

At this point I was transitioning into wearing maternity clothes exclusively. Note the same outfits in rotation in the following pictures 😅. Since I spend the majority of my time at work in uniform, or at home in some state of undress I didn’t feel like it was necessary to purchase a bunch of maternity clothes/outfits.

Dad (Ben) and I took Tex to a park in Norman and got some exercise on a day off. First time I started feeling a bit short of breath and a bit ‘weaker’ during our walks.

Found an old skirt from Monki that worked with my growing belly as well. Finally felt a bit cute!

Felt like I was properly starting to show at this point!

Ben and I goofing around and getting excited to meet Tove.

Still been able to rock the heels throughout this pregnancy! Ask me again in a few weeks, answer might change.

At work selfie, just cause I felt like the pregnancy glow people always talk about finally caught up to me! My skin cleared up and I think my hormones started to balance out after a full year of ups and downs. I do feel like I look older in this photo though.. already aged and she hasn’t even been born yet 😅

Out on the golf course with Ben on a lovely spring day. Had to document that I was carrying precious life!

At the beginning of April you couldn’t quite tell I was pregnant straight from the front or the back, but once I turned from the side it was starting to be like SURPRISE.

Tex has been a momma’s boy throughout this pregnancy, very needy of attention.

Beginning of May we got a visit from Ben’s parents. Decided to dress up for Mother’s Day even though it felt a bit like cheating celebrating it before we even had a child born into the world. I will say I have a new found appreciation for my own mother this year.

All back ensemble before meeting with our midwife and doula.

Ben outside the Birth Center where we have our clinic meetings with our midwife and her assistant.

Some presents from our registry started to arrive and I was WAY TO EXCITED to not get everything out of the box and set up immediately. Really in love with how functional the travel set we got from Maxi-Cosi is.

Since we haven’t moved into a house yet and will (hopefully) only be at the townhouse with our newborn for a few months into the fall/winter we decided to wait on buying a crib and decorating a nursery. Bassinet for the bedside seems like it’s going to work great for us.

Ben and I joke about our daughter getting his ASSets instead of the ‘plat arsle’ that runs on my side of the family.

Wanted to set up the baby monitor the second it arrived I was so excited. I always am with new technology but the Nanit comes with some awesome features so Ben told me to wait until she was born, that way we didn’t miss out on a few months of free perks. Damn my impatience.. but I got it back in the box without much fuss.

My Pappa was generous enough to order us a second Maxi-Cosi car base, that way we can drive both cars without the hassle of having to reinstall the car seat every time. We still haven’t gone to the fire station to get them installed properly, but it’s on the June to-do list.

This is one of my favorite photos from the pregnancy so far. Not sure why but it reminds me of photos from when I was a child at our summer house in Sweden. Maybe it’s the half nakedness outside or the warm colors. Either way this is very typical of me.. plus Tex is always nearby.

Another selfie because damnit I want to remember life before sleep deprivation and no time for make-up!

At the end of May, I felt like I really started picking up speed in terms of belly growth!

A less than flattering photo of me outside the birth center. Not sure if it was the weather that day or the shadows, but them under eye bags would not quit!

Learning to adapt to pregnancy life includes always having to lay on my side to be comfortable. Preferably with a pillow in between my legs as well. I can’t tell you how many times I’ve woken up on my back in bed and forced myself to fall back asleep on my side. CANNOT WAIT to be able to lay down on my stomach again either.

Tex has been the biggest cuddle/snuggle bug throughout the last couple of months. I feel like the bigger my belly has gotten the more gentle he is around me and with me. He also has to have his face touching my belly if we are laying down together on the couch. He’s going to be very protective of baby girl when she arrives, I can already feel it.

My motto for this unmedicated birth and pregnancy has been “She believed she could, so she did.” I often wear the bracelet Ben’s mom got me a few years ago as a reminder on the daily.

More Tex + Tove bonding on the couch

Ben and I got back from Costco after buying some diapers and baby wipes and looked at each other, “It’s getting so real!”

I had my prenatal visit with a lactation consultant at Thrive Mama Collective. Was a very informative initial meeting and I am very happy with the level of care I’ve received since finding a network of midwives who have recommendations for nearly every aspect of my pregnancy. Shout out to Jessica Cheatwood for the time, knowledge, tips/tricks, and for guiding me through how to work my breast pump!

Hopefully there will be another photo dump from the last part of the third trimester as well.

Week 22

Holy crap- how did we get this far? I am still trying to wrap my head around being pregnant and all of the experiences yet to come and you’re telling me I’m in month FIVE?! Only four months left to go. I can only imagine how new mothers feel about time, when I’m already wanting to slow this pregnancy down. I used to tell Tex every day when he was a puppy “stop growing!” and I have a feeling I’ll be saying the same to baby girl when she starts developing before my eyes 😍.

We got some good news this week! I’ve been struggling with finding a doctor and a place I want to birth our daughter, and just recently was informed by OU Medicine that they were unable to reach a contract with Blue Cross Blue Shield, my insurance provider, so our birth with them would’ve ended up being an out of pocket expense (ie. hella expensive). I wasn’t a huge fan on their family medical center to begin with AND to top it all off they’ve had me see three different doctors in the last three months. I honestly felt like I was just another chore to them being passed along. Not the vibe you want when you’re bringing a new life into the world. I won’t go into all the negative details but I will be cancelling my upcoming appointments with them because I got accepted as a new patient with a doctor in Norman. Hopefully the initial visit goes well, as I reaaaaally want some stability before it’s due date.

Tex (🐾) has always shown an interest in my abdomen when I’ve been pregnant. He did it during our last pregnancy before I miscarried, and so when he did it back in December again I looked at Ben and said “We do buy a pregnancy test?”.. even though we both knew 🥰.

Current favorite part of pregnancy: Feeling her movements more strongly now, as opposed to “I think that might’ve been?” movement.
Current loathed part of pregnancy: Mood swings. All the damn time, and they’re very intense. Plus I can’t sleep well at night.

Pregnancy Rage

Pregnancy Rage

I honestly had no clue it even existed until I found myself angry at the entire world, slamming doors, throwing dishes into the dishwasher and wanting to scream bloody murder for no apparent reason. Most days it is manageable and then there are nights like last night when I get home from work and have to clean up around the house, put the dishes up, and cook myself dinner at 9pm while Ben is fast asleep and it bubbles up inside of me like the nightmare that I know is waiting to happen.

I’m really hoping that the hormones will settle down after birth, because if this is a long term thing then Ben might want to consider living separately LOL.

Has anyone else experienced pregnancy rage? What did you do to combat it in the moment?

Breathing exercises are not enough for me and honestly sometimes on the road I feel like I should pull over and calm myself down because I can’t see straight enough to drive with all the other idiots on the road in OK. I thought Texas drivers were bad, but they’re something else up here. It was a trigger before I got pregnant and now it’s almost every time I get in the car. Which obviously isn’t safe for me or baby girl.

When I’m not experiencing rage everything else seems manageable, but it always comes out of the blue, VERY unexpected. I’ve never really had anger issues so it’s an entirely new emotion for me to be dealing with on a regular basis.

I’m going to start implementing a bit more meditation, as well as trying some prenatal yoga and getting proper “me time” before the baby arrives.

Fast growing

I caved and purchased some maternity clothes online today from Shein. Never bought anything from them before, and although I’m not an advocate for fast fashion, it felt very fitting to purchase some cheaper items I’ll only be wearing for the next couple of months. Ya girl ain’t made of money.

As I’ve started growing quite quickly now, I realized that summer is fast approaching as well. If I don’t drown in my own sweat hopefully these outfits will help keep me cool… and look cool 😛 (side note: are mom jokes a thing? I feel like that was a mom joke.)

Super excited about the color of this shirt. I also have a sneaking suspicion that I may still be in love with wearing it well after my pregnancy. It also comes in several other colors.

This came as a set and I’m really hoping it’s as comfortable and cute as it looks. The bottoms are also adjustable so they can keep up with little one’s demand regarding space in my belly. I may be living in this get up come June.

I showed this dress to Ben and he started laughing. I asked what was wrong with the dress and he goes “what in the heck is a ruffle cuff?!” I think he thought the name was more entertaining than the thought of me looking cute in the dress. Boys and their priorities 😉

I wasn’t entirely sure about this one after I had placed the order. Definitely not my typical color scheme, but a colleague of mine reminded me how cute it would be with my YRU white platform sneakers. Can’t wait to see it in person!

Now these are the ones I am most excited about! My first thought went directly to the neon biker shorts from American Apparel and how cute those are paired with a bigger tee. Thinking I can do the same with these. My work uniform has been adjusted while I’m pregnant and I wear long leggings at work. I think these will be the first thing I change into when I get home from work on a daily basis though!

I am not made for heat so I am hoping that being pregnant during the summer isn’t too difficult. If anything it gives me a full year to get my beach body back, right? LOL as if that’s going to be my priority.

Oh Baby!

Oh Baby!

Ecstatic and blessed to announce we’re having a baby girl late July/early August of 2021!

Currently halfway through the second trimester so things are definitely looking up compared to the first trimester where I spent the majority of the time with my head in the toilet. After the loss of our pregnancy last spring, I have been dealing with some health issues so combined with the morning sickness we were unsure how we were going to fare this time around. I decided to keep the pregnancy to myself for the entire first trimester due to sheer fear of not having a baby to announce after all. Look at us now! Ben + Me = 3 😉

Ben and I both cried the first time we heard her heartbeat. During the sonogram it was mind blowing to see her spine had begun to form. And those cute little feets 🥰

From Dad to be: We just know it takes a village and are thankful for any and all help we’ve received in this journey and just know we can’t thank you enough for the wisdom, advice, and items that will help us in our newfound daily lives.

Super excited for this next chapter and to finally be able to share with you all my pregnancy among other things to come!