I thought I had lost myself along the way with having a child and having changed my habits drastically in the last few years.
Somehow I found a new My (me 😝) when Tove was born; A stronger, more confident woman.
Traveling again and people watching has invigorated the old My. Not the bad habits or the mental issues… although let’s be real the mental monsters never go away, you just find a better way to manage them. But I feel like myself again, FUCKING FINALLY. I would apologize for the swear words, but no, that’s exactly how I feel.
I’ve been so torn between being My and being a mother and you know what? You can have your cake and eat it too. I can be the true me and be a great mother to my daughter.
I’ve needed this break so badly and I’m so thankful that I’ve gained the clarity to continue working to achieve my dreams. I cannot wait to show Tove the world and not let go of my own desires along the way.
Everyone warns you about how much your life changes when you have children but nobody ever emphasizes how much better you become as a person. Being a mother has empowered me to feel strongly and stand my ground.
What a difference Tove has already made in this world. So loved from many areas of the 🌎 globe.
We’ve been blessed to have her as healthy and happy as she’s been these first 8 months.
This last month, Tove’s appetite has definitely grown. She’s still breastfeeding 3 times a day but we’ve also added in 2 meals and some snacks throughout the day. So far anything puréed has been a hit, but she’s also been enjoying some baby led weaning. We’ve started with some watermelon, tortillas, avocado.. you name it, Tove eats it!
She’s still stationary but honestly, I’m grateful for any extra time we get. I am not ready to be chasing her throughout the house just yet.
Tove LOVES dogs, like a lot. She screams with happiness at both my parents dog, Ziggy and anytime she can get Tex’s attention at home. She’s also fond of other dogs on our walks 🐾
We’ve recently hit a fussy phase, or leap if you’re reading the wonder weeks. Lots of patience is needed from us as parents and it’s a work in progress. Luckily she’s still sleeping well throughout the night in her crib so we’re able to be sane throughout her tantrums.
I can’t believe we’re just a few months out from her first birthday… like I said, life changing.
I really wanted to make this blog a full scale documentary of Tove’s first year with us but honestly I’ve enjoyed being with her too much to set aside time to blog.
I have a sneaking suspicion I will wish I did more during this time the older she gets, but it’s hard to keep up with it all.
I started to feel overwhelmed with a lot, mostly social media.. so I deactivated my fb and Instagram for a while. It’s been refreshing.
I’m hoping I remember to blog about the fun we’ve had recently but I may just have to journal it into my mom’s one line a day and document via Polaroids instead. I love the memories we’ve made this far…
Started this morning off GREAT! Tove slept through the night until 6AM 😱 and after breakfast we got to have a FaceTime call with my dad who’s in Sweden currently visiting my grandmother and uncle. Four generations of my family were on that call and I just think that is the coolest thing ever.
Ito is driving up from Dallas this weekend as well so once I finish work we get to socialize and see what OKC has to offer us.