I Took the Plunge

At first I didn’t want to do a baby registry at all. Mostly because it feels SO WEIRD to me to be like “hey I need these expensive things, now purchase them for me. K thx!” However when I needed to put together a list of items to buy before she gets here it became pretty evident to me that a baby registry was a two birds one stone kinda thing. I get to keep track of what all is left, AND those who want to celebrate this beautiful new life with us also get to join in on the giving!

I decided to use Babylist because it let me add items from all over the web, instead of just picking from a set list of items some registries sell. Babylist also gives you options for adding cash funds or favors! We chose to go with the parental leave fund, since I will be taking 2 months off from work, but will be unpaid. There’s also a diaper fund option which is legit. There were great options such as a meal train, offers to do chores, and some other ones buuuuuut since we’re in Oklahoma and don’t have many people around up here I didn’t think those were feasible.

Feel free to take a peek. I’m sure there’s a lot of things that seem like they are missing, but we aren’t doing a nursery until we’ve moved later this summer/fall so decor and whatnot is on our back burners. I STRUGGLED with choosing the travel set, mostly because of car seat safety but also the colors of the babybjörn and the changing pad.. probably over thinking it.

Birthing Pod

Birthing Pod

What a sense of relief this week has brought us! Not only did we decide on a midwife, but we also chose where we are going to birth our baby girl this summer.

I had my consultation with Brandy Harris from Willow Birth Services at the OKC Birth Center and fell in love instantly. She was open and honest and INFORMATIVE, not just directive. The birth center itself is brand spanking new this year; had their first birth this past week as well 🥰. The interior reminded me of homes in Sweden and that right there is what sold me. If my daughter isn’t going to be born in Sweden then I might as well make it DAMN CLOSE in esthetics. Plus I believe the space in which you birth should be equally as intimate at the space in which you conceived.

After struggling through appointments with FOUR different doctors, we settled on a natural birth. I hate hospitals and the business of being born in the states is overwhelming as a first time mom. I felt like a number, rather than a patient; I wasn’t about to pass that onto my child.

I am still vastly unprepared and uneducated on child birth, which is why we chose to hire some amazing women to help us. We will be working with a midwife, her assistant, as well as a doula. Ben, being a Magic The Gathering player, named our birthing team after a card and I’m here for it 😛 . I think I may have forgone having a doula if my mother was going to be present at the birth, or if this wasn’t our first rodeo, but ask me again after and I might have a different answer.

I will be having an unmedicated birth, which frankly still scares the daylights out of me but I believe mindset is everything. My body was made for this, I am a woman and am meant to bring new life into this world. If I mentally prepare then my body will know how to do the rest. Which is also the precise reason I chose the women I did to work with during our birth. They come with experience, knowledge, and advice that the internet can’t give me. I am also super thrilled to have Ben be an integral part of our birth, rather than an anxious dad in the corner of a hospital room.

For the first time during this pregnancy I can honestly say that I am excited to have birth! Maybe not so excited about all aspects but I feel empowered with the team we’ve chosen. 🤗

Rooted Zen Dispensary

I had one of these past weekends off for the first time in what felt like forever! Ben and I went up to our old stomping grounds in OKC to get Tex groomed and while he was getting his pawdicure we decided to tool around for a bit. We had to go to Home Depot to buy wood planks for our bed but of course left the old one at home so we didn’t have any measurements with us- luckily the new Rooted Zen dispensary was just around the corner.

I didn’t expect to be stopping in for my first time so I didn’t take any pictures of their beautiful location. You can check out a sneak peak The Chronic did a few weeks ago here.

I had already been to a Likewise location, but I still got 20% off for being a first time patient at the Rooted Zen dispensary. I’m assuming they had sort of a soft-opening as there weren’t smell jars yet, and we were unable to purchase strains by the gram.

I’ve always enjoyed flower grown by Rooted Zen so we decided to grab an 1/8th ($50). Ben chose the Snowball strain, even though we’ve had it before 😅. It’s a nice relaxing indica leaning hybrid in my opinion. Had that signature Rooted Zen smell to it, with frosty looking buds.

All in all it was a good shopping experience! I won’t be a regular simply because of the location being where it is, BUT if you’re in OK with your med card and you haven’t tried Rooted Zen yet, well you’re missing out.

The weekend at bernie’s I got from @RootedZen is better than the movie ever was. You still haven’t been? When you go tell em I sent you and get 0% off your total purchase but tell em I sent you anyway

Originally tweeted by Violencia Pacífico (@AlmightyYolaman) on March 26, 2021.

lol @ the twitter comment, but they are having their grand opening this Saturday (4/3) with some really good deals!

Week 22

Holy crap- how did we get this far? I am still trying to wrap my head around being pregnant and all of the experiences yet to come and you’re telling me I’m in month FIVE?! Only four months left to go. I can only imagine how new mothers feel about time, when I’m already wanting to slow this pregnancy down. I used to tell Tex every day when he was a puppy “stop growing!” and I have a feeling I’ll be saying the same to baby girl when she starts developing before my eyes 😍.

We got some good news this week! I’ve been struggling with finding a doctor and a place I want to birth our daughter, and just recently was informed by OU Medicine that they were unable to reach a contract with Blue Cross Blue Shield, my insurance provider, so our birth with them would’ve ended up being an out of pocket expense (ie. hella expensive). I wasn’t a huge fan on their family medical center to begin with AND to top it all off they’ve had me see three different doctors in the last three months. I honestly felt like I was just another chore to them being passed along. Not the vibe you want when you’re bringing a new life into the world. I won’t go into all the negative details but I will be cancelling my upcoming appointments with them because I got accepted as a new patient with a doctor in Norman. Hopefully the initial visit goes well, as I reaaaaally want some stability before it’s due date.

Tex (🐾) has always shown an interest in my abdomen when I’ve been pregnant. He did it during our last pregnancy before I miscarried, and so when he did it back in December again I looked at Ben and said “We do buy a pregnancy test?”.. even though we both knew 🥰.

Current favorite part of pregnancy: Feeling her movements more strongly now, as opposed to “I think that might’ve been?” movement.
Current loathed part of pregnancy: Mood swings. All the damn time, and they’re very intense. Plus I can’t sleep well at night.

Times They Are A-Changin’

Oklahoma HB2022

Sometimes I wonder how the lawyers and auditors in this state keep up with the ever changing regulations and laws regarding cannabis. Although I don’t agree with every initiative or even some of the newer bills that have passed (looking at you SB 445 👀) I think any conversation regarding cannabis is a step in the right direction.

I was so misguided and uneducated before moving to a medical market, I can only hope that more conversations enlighten more people or at the very least shine a light on what areas we all need to be better educated on and start to erase some of the pesky stigmas.

Working in the cannabis industry I am very obviously pro-cannabis legalization, both at the state and federal level. Question is when or if the USA will get to the latter.

That being said… House bill 2022 in Oklahoma would allow medicinal patients from ALL 50 states (See y’all Texans here in a minute). The House of Representatives approved the measure last month, I’m pretty sure the tourism committee has it now (?). If it goes in effect next year then patients from other states would have to get their recommendation, apply for a temporary medical license and pay a $200 fee to OMMA, AND it would be valid for two years. Insane. It could benefit people who live across the border in other states but work in Oklahoma massively.

It would still be illegal to travel with your medication though. So people wouldn’t be able to drive across state lines with whatever MMJ products they purchase in Oklahoma. Seems like a clusterfuck, but as far as I’m concerned that’s not my problem. You wouldn’t be hard pressed to find people already traveling back and forth between medical and non-legal markets. Just the other week I had a vendor stop in the store and show me samples of her product, which she then openly told me she was going to consume and drive back to Dallas with immediately after our meeting. 🙃

Pregnancy Rage

Pregnancy Rage

I honestly had no clue it even existed until I found myself angry at the entire world, slamming doors, throwing dishes into the dishwasher and wanting to scream bloody murder for no apparent reason. Most days it is manageable and then there are nights like last night when I get home from work and have to clean up around the house, put the dishes up, and cook myself dinner at 9pm while Ben is fast asleep and it bubbles up inside of me like the nightmare that I know is waiting to happen.

I’m really hoping that the hormones will settle down after birth, because if this is a long term thing then Ben might want to consider living separately LOL.

Has anyone else experienced pregnancy rage? What did you do to combat it in the moment?

Breathing exercises are not enough for me and honestly sometimes on the road I feel like I should pull over and calm myself down because I can’t see straight enough to drive with all the other idiots on the road in OK. I thought Texas drivers were bad, but they’re something else up here. It was a trigger before I got pregnant and now it’s almost every time I get in the car. Which obviously isn’t safe for me or baby girl.

When I’m not experiencing rage everything else seems manageable, but it always comes out of the blue, VERY unexpected. I’ve never really had anger issues so it’s an entirely new emotion for me to be dealing with on a regular basis.

I’m going to start implementing a bit more meditation, as well as trying some prenatal yoga and getting proper “me time” before the baby arrives.

Fast growing

I caved and purchased some maternity clothes online today from Shein. Never bought anything from them before, and although I’m not an advocate for fast fashion, it felt very fitting to purchase some cheaper items I’ll only be wearing for the next couple of months. Ya girl ain’t made of money.

As I’ve started growing quite quickly now, I realized that summer is fast approaching as well. If I don’t drown in my own sweat hopefully these outfits will help keep me cool… and look cool 😛 (side note: are mom jokes a thing? I feel like that was a mom joke.)

Super excited about the color of this shirt. I also have a sneaking suspicion that I may still be in love with wearing it well after my pregnancy. It also comes in several other colors.

This came as a set and I’m really hoping it’s as comfortable and cute as it looks. The bottoms are also adjustable so they can keep up with little one’s demand regarding space in my belly. I may be living in this get up come June.

I showed this dress to Ben and he started laughing. I asked what was wrong with the dress and he goes “what in the heck is a ruffle cuff?!” I think he thought the name was more entertaining than the thought of me looking cute in the dress. Boys and their priorities 😉

I wasn’t entirely sure about this one after I had placed the order. Definitely not my typical color scheme, but a colleague of mine reminded me how cute it would be with my YRU white platform sneakers. Can’t wait to see it in person!

Now these are the ones I am most excited about! My first thought went directly to the neon biker shorts from American Apparel and how cute those are paired with a bigger tee. Thinking I can do the same with these. My work uniform has been adjusted while I’m pregnant and I wear long leggings at work. I think these will be the first thing I change into when I get home from work on a daily basis though!

I am not made for heat so I am hoping that being pregnant during the summer isn’t too difficult. If anything it gives me a full year to get my beach body back, right? LOL as if that’s going to be my priority.