I randomly read on Reddit that Scissortail South had opened last week so Ben and I decided to pack up the little babe and check it out.
MAPS has done such AWESOME things for Oklahoma City, it’s kind of unreal.
I was very impressed with how clean the bathrooms were and the amenities surrounding the trails and practice pitch.
Ben, being a football ⚽️ fanatic, was elated when we found the practice field to park by. Luckily we had packed Tove’s mini ball with us… what are the odds.
Tove and I got to enjoy a nature walk with this beautiful scenery.
We thought about walking across the Skybridge to the north side of the park, but fall hasn’t quite arrived yet.
So we opted for air conditioning and drove over to *you guessed it* social capital.
Nobody told me that when you grow up you have to grow alongside your responsibilities.
As your income increases, most likely your expenses will as well.
I just had to pay to get a new windshield, fully out of pocket, because my car insurance doesn’t cover it. Well you know how that makes me feel?
Grateful.
Bet you weren’t expecting that. Yeah it sucks that I had to take a hit to my savings but I’m still grateful that I can afford to pay my bills AND take care of incoming unexpected expenses. The mark of “making it” in my opinion.
I thought I had lost myself along the way with having a child and having changed my habits drastically in the last few years.
Somehow I found a new My (me 😝) when Tove was born; A stronger, more confident woman.
Traveling again and people watching has invigorated the old My. Not the bad habits or the mental issues… although let’s be real the mental monsters never go away, you just find a better way to manage them. But I feel like myself again, FUCKING FINALLY. I would apologize for the swear words, but no, that’s exactly how I feel.
I’ve been so torn between being My and being a mother and you know what? You can have your cake and eat it too. I can be the true me and be a great mother to my daughter.
I’ve needed this break so badly and I’m so thankful that I’ve gained the clarity to continue working to achieve my dreams. I cannot wait to show Tove the world and not let go of my own desires along the way.
Everyone warns you about how much your life changes when you have children but nobody ever emphasizes how much better you become as a person. Being a mother has empowered me to feel strongly and stand my ground.