11 months

… + a few days. I didn’t have the energy or time to write this post last weekend but better late than never.

Tove is 1 month shy of being a year old- holy crap. Time really does go by fast when you’re constantly watching your child grow before your eyes.

Tove loves to walk around with the help of mamma and pappa, she couch surfs from one side to the other constantly.

I still don’t think there is a single food we’ve tried that Tove doesn’t enjoy eating.

She’s sleeping through the nights still and I swear she’s bigger when we pick her up in the mornings some times.

She’s learned to clap and enjoys her favorite Swedish YouTube videos along with playing with all of her toys.

We even took a dip in the kiddie pool together outside over mamma’s 3-day weekend.

Just enjoying having a happy healthy baby ☺️

The Adult Privilege

Tex tax- he’s on guard watch, his adult privilege

Nobody told me that when you grow up you have to grow alongside your responsibilities.

As your income increases, most likely your expenses will as well.

I just had to pay to get a new windshield, fully out of pocket, because my car insurance doesn’t cover it. Well you know how that makes me feel?

Grateful.

Bet you weren’t expecting that. Yeah it sucks that I had to take a hit to my savings but I’m still grateful that I can afford to pay my bills AND take care of incoming unexpected expenses. The mark of “making it” in my opinion.

The Old My

I thought I had lost myself along the way with having a child and having changed my habits drastically in the last few years.

Somehow I found a new My (me 😝) when Tove was born; A stronger, more confident woman.

Traveling again and people watching has invigorated the old My. Not the bad habits or the mental issues… although let’s be real the mental monsters never go away, you just find a better way to manage them. But I feel like myself again, FUCKING FINALLY. I would apologize for the swear words, but no, that’s exactly how I feel.

I’ve been so torn between being My and being a mother and you know what? You can have your cake and eat it too. I can be the true me and be a great mother to my daughter.

I’ve needed this break so badly and I’m so thankful that I’ve gained the clarity to continue working to achieve my dreams. I cannot wait to show Tove the world and not let go of my own desires along the way.

Everyone warns you about how much your life changes when you have children but nobody ever emphasizes how much better you become as a person. Being a mother has empowered me to feel strongly and stand my ground.

The future is female and I birthed her.

10 Months

Tove has spent more time alive outside my womb than she did inside at this point and wow have I loved her journey so far.

16 pounds later, she’s somewhere in between nine month old clothing and one year old. She’s tall like her pappa but she’s also a skinny one.

Tove is great at eating food. We’ve gone from breastfeeding four times a day to only feeding once in the morning. She’s eaten everything we’ve given her so far… and she’s enjoyed it! Broccoli, corn, rice, chicken, salmon, pasta, bread, blueberries and bananas; to name a few of her favorites.

She’s starting to babble a bit and she’s enjoying walking with the help of my poor back 😅.

This month we took our first flight together and Tove took her first swim in the ocean.

I am so grateful that Tove has changed my life in the way she has. Tove feels happiness with her entire body and she really shares her joy with the world around her.

Vacation

On Sunday I flew with Tove on her first ever flight to meet my parents in Florida. The first flight to Dallas from OKC wasn’t the best time, but we fared better on the second leg of our journey. Even though I had to change her diaper in the airplane toilet- that place is TINY.

Ben stayed at home to take care of Tex 🐾 and work. Feels weird not having him around for the first time since Tove was born.

Tove is my little beach BABE. She’s been loving the naps on the beach and playing with Mormor and Morfar in the shade.

She’s getting more comfortable with the water but it takes her a minute to adjust every time.